The Invisible

Ugh, can’t stand it but I am going to do what I can do to be as blameless as possible, to let myself know that I have done to the best of my abilities, to have the satisfaction to sleep tonight.

YES.

(:

Anw Usher duty on last Sunday was the most exciting ever. Haha I really hoped I could prepare Dr. Bernard’s glass but I didn’t get to do so. Aw man! But duty was still exciting. Seriously, people were flooding in and we even needed to hold people at the queue area. That was like the first time I saw it happen. I don’t think it never happened before, but I think it’s simply cos I haven’t seen enough yet. Haha sermon was awesome but I think just the fact that Dr. Bernard is preaching in HoGc makes it so so cool ^^

Pst How’s sermon during Zone F service is the best best best. I should really buy it so I can listen to it over and over again. Ohgoshhhhhhhhhh I have so many audio and video sermons I wanna buy :) but need to save money :O

Okay just keep saving. Haha anw I had a cool dream last night. It was of someone who saved me from the clutches of my enemy. Like a movie right! Hahaha.

Gonna have the first ever leader’s meeting in my life later on!!!!! I am so excited and I love my CG a lot. They are people who are just so different from the others I meet outside of church. Chatting with Moo and Yiwen at such an unearthly time. Moo just called herself a ‘forgetful old woman’. And Yiwen wants to go running with me and we are supposed to do sit-ups tonight. HAHA I am going to do it before I sleep.

Love my mum too. I think she’s cute. But sometimes she’s scary. HAHA. I bet all mums are the same anw.

I am tired O-<-< zzZ

My mom has a special power!

I dunno if anyone feels the way I do, haha but anw.. Whenever I get stressed up while doing work, I always like to stop work for a few minutes to look at my mom.

Haha.. It’s a bit funny but.. As weird as it seems, doing so brings me peace and encouragement. I dunno why, but it happens all the time. I think moms have a special power (:

Basketball!

Went to Basketball Summer Program this morning! It was so cool. Omgosh I supported Hardest, New Town and of course HoGC! Hahaha.. All played kinda rough BUT was really exciting. I was totally screaming jiayou and their names. HAHA tak glam but it was seriously exciting. Haha New Town was the Champion and I think they really deserved it (: Cool man! And Yiying is so funny la………….. Hahahaha. Oh gosh! Esmonde and Ivan were funny during the photo-taking too. Hahaha.

Haha and anw I got psycho-ed by Val to get BlackBerry but well, I’m glad she psycho-ed me. BB is really cool I think. If only I had the $$$ to get the newest model (: Haha. It’s okay, I’m still young, I’ll be able to pay for it when I save up next time! Hope I can save more money when I change plan so my mum won’t scream at me anymore (: Hahaha..

I’m having the mood to do school work now so I’m gonna go do it, okay alright zai jian!

OHYEAH! Weihong and Winifred led Praise and Worship for Zone F service today (for the first time I think)! They’re so amazing!! Haha though it was just a run-through, but God’s presence was already so thick. Zhilin and I were standing beside each other and we kept having goosebumps haha. They’re really amazing (:

To my Dearest,

To my Dearest

Sometimes, I forget.
Sometimes, I doubt.
But at the end of it all, what You say I am to be, I believe I shall be.
Even though right now, I might seem to be far from that.
Even though I can never imagine myself being like that.

I have been dreaming a lot these days.
Dreaming to be significant.
Dreaming to do things that I never ever thought I could ever do.
Not wishful thinking, but.. trying to look through Your eyes.

I am a person who can never see the good in myself.
But You seem to have eyes that can always see what I cannot.
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you…”
God, You created me, You know my fullest potential.

Chillax

It’s funny cos my sister can always simply ask my dad to do stuff that he wont usually do and he would agree almost instantly. Like watching movie, taking public bus and going to the library. Haha

Had dinner with sis and dad just now and even went to the library together. Was really cool cos never thought my dad would sit in the library and read magazines by himself (and not fall asleep haha). Cool (:

I have a massive massive law assignment to hand in by 5pm tmr and I’m still far far far from completing it. But I will. Doubt I’ll be sleeping the whole of tonight. Can finish assignment and can make it for CHC Morning PM. Kill two stones with one bird. HAHA joke. Hope I don’t KO halfway (:

无底洞

人类的心是个无底洞
尝试亲吻　尝试拥抱　或沟通
没有好感再尝试也没有用
大多数人都相同　喜欢的只是爱情的脸孔

我的依赖

我们从牵手放手又牵手走过来
愿意为感动你的心 spending all my life
每当情绪像海 你只抱我
从不催我讲出来
我就明白 你是我的依赖

我们从期待失落又期待走过来
原以为一起看未来 spending all my life
每当变成习惯 生活太淡
总有感动的意外
我就明白 你是我的依赖

我们从日出日落又日出走过来
愿意为爱你去忙碌 spending all my life
每当命运变换 需要关怀
需要流泪你都在
我就明白 你是我的依赖

I like this photo.

Just read Pst How’s twits.
He’s just so cool!

Most people would hate traffic jams, find it so troublesome to pick up their kids from school etc.
But Pst simply loves the smallest things in life.
It’s like he looks at the good in the bad.
It’s not like he can but I think he simply made the choice.
Seriously cool!
My Pst (:
Haha!

Man. If you’re feeling tired of the things you do or feel that no one can understand you or simply feel bad, should seriously just visit Ivan’s blog. Feel good after reading his stuff. Like it connects you then inspires you. Cool stuff.

I’ve so much work on my hands. I suck at one module and.. it doesn’t feel good.

I jogged at ECP ytd night. Felt really really good. Gonna continue doing this a few times a week. If I have time. But never if I feel like doing it or not. Cos if I tell myself that, then I’ll never run. Until I become so fat that I can’t squeeze out of my house door. Hahaha. I am so inspired by Mag and Venus’ legs can. Ohmy.. Serious muscles. Haha gonna run, gonna run..

Woah I must do some work tonight, cos church is tmr (:
Must not sleep too late too.
I slept at 4am on thursday just to finish school work. And that was the most terrible thing to do ever. Procrastination plus talking to Sharyl and Junrong online plus internet temptations. Oh. My. Gosh. 4am. Peifen, please don’t do that anymore. Haha..

Have you ever had those days that you feel so disconnected that you even forget to say grace before your meals?? Ohman. Today was that day for me. It’s not about forgetting to say grace, but it’s about why would that even happen……

Need to spend more time in God’s presence!

edit/
Some time long time ago, Jieru asked me, what I wanted to do or smth like that question.
I asked her, You mean about life or church?
Then she said, Isn’t it the same?

Till today, I’m always thinking about it.
Isn’t it the same?
Life is church.
Church is life.
Isn’t it the same.

Is, Am, Will, Are.

April 13, 2009
Today stands for more
Ivan ‘Vern’ Poh from URL @ 12:51 AM
Proverbs 25:28
Whoever has no rule over his own spirit Is like a city broken down, without walls.

Rule your spirit.
Smile.
Walk upright.
Project our voice.
Engage.

Today is the day the Lord as made. Therefore we should rejoice in Today.
Today stands for potential. It stands for great memories.
Today encapsulates yesterday and seals it in our hearts and minds.
Today’s value is placed in our hands.
I determine the value of Today.

Rule means Will.
I will means I will rule.
The will is very powerful. The will causes us to rule.
God has given us a will for a purpose.
That will is for us to exercise ruler-ship.

That means innately we have an inclination to rule.
It is only natural that we rule. We are fish in water when we do. We are fish out of water when we don’t.

When you don’t rule, you get stepped all over. You’re a city without walls.
There is no boundary, there is no guideline. You are restless. You are floating.
You get knocked. You adjust. You become a thermometer. You react. You are a stained piece of white cloth.

We’re the city on a hill. The light that shines ever brightly.
The flame that kindles. We are the salt that makes the whole meal taste a little better. We are the salt of the earth. We are supposed to increase the value and taste of a day.

Some Christians subtract from Today.
Some add. Some multiply.
Interestingly, some also react.

A city on a hill cannot be hidden. It is seen. It is obvious. It is in the face.
When we don’t rule our spirits and emotions we become a forfeited city.

Rejoice in Today. The joy of the Lord is my strength.
Ruler-ship and Joy are the antidote to a bad spell.
They are the saviors of a forfeited city.

I want to be a city that shines. A city that is recognized.
A representation of my God.
My day reflects the craftsmanship of God because he made today.

Have a great today.
You live from today to today.
Make today beautiful and amazing.
Exalt and glorify God with your day.

Have a great day.

Today…
What happened earlier, reminded me of that post that I read on Ivan’s blog quite some time ago.

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapons formed against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

In all of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Is, Am, Will, Are.

It is not a “Maybe“, “Can I have it?“, “Give it to me please?” kind of prayer.

It is a word of FAITH.
It is a word of prophecy.
It is a “I want it and I will continue seeking“, “I will wait on You” kind of prayer.

This is so powerful!
Triumph IS on its way!
I AM a conqueror and co-heir with Christ!

Ariel

“You’ve stayed long enough at this mountain. On your way now. Get moving. …Look, I’ve given you this land. Now go in and take it. It’s the land God promised to give…”